it was horrible! I came home the first day and felt fine and all of a sudden my body got hot and I hurt! I remember my mom taking me to drop off Cameron at church and I was just praying for God to give me strength to make it. I will never forget as soon as I finished my prayer Cameron said "Mommy can we just go home so I can cuddle with you and watch a show." I never had a prayer answered so quickly. There was no way I could make it to drop him off.
Day two was not much better but at least I could walk. All I could remember was Psalm 23
Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
To some that sounds scary but to me it was music. When I first was diagnosed with cancer our Sunday school teacher (Maury Gill) taught a lesson on Psalm 23. He pointed out that we do not run or walk fast in trials but we walk, and let me tell you these past few days have felt like a slow crawl, but I had peace in knowing Jesus was there holding my hand. I just kept saying over and over do not fear Cecily Holm for God is with me.
During all this I receive a care package in the mail from a women that I just met. Her name is Laura and she had breast cancer 10 years ago but she loves the Lord and had some great advice to give me the days before I started chemo. Anyhow she sent me a bracelet that has Hebrews 13:5 inscribed in it "Never will I leave you or forsake you"
Ok so to me it was like having front row tickets to Randy Travis or Kenny Rodgers! I mean seriously!!!!! Now not only was I chanting " Do not fear Cecily Holm for God is with me and He will NEVER leave me or forsake me!" and I had the bracelet to squeeze in my had.
God is good all the time no matter what and I have to say the day I got hooked up to chemo will be forever etched in my mind but for those of you who didn't read my facebook post this is what I posted
Jan. 18 11:03 AM