I have had a bunch of emails asking me how I am. I have been quiet for a little while because I think I'm trying to digest all that life has to offer right now. I don't know if you know that my Dad passed away on January 28. That was crazy on its own. He was living with us for several months and after my first round of chemo I told him to go home for the weekend and take a break. The next day he passed away suddenly.
This has been a hard year for us and yesterday was really hard (Father's Day) but I decided to spend the day enjoying my family and thanking God for my husband and sweet kids. I didn't want to be depressed and lose the day I do have with people who I love and are here with.
I'm tired a lot but it has become my new normal so I just keep going. Some days are better then others. I sort of feel ready to go back to work but know that I need to stay home and get some extra sleep so I can keep up with my kids during the day. They certainly keep me busy!!
I have 4 weeks left of chemo!! Yea!! and my sweet friend's MIL gave us a few days stay at their BnB in the Hill Country. Corey and I will cram a few days with the kids and then have a night to ourselves for our anniversary. We will be married 8 years on July 24. I start radiation that week. It will be daily and last 6 weeks. From there I will have a hysterectomy. Reconstruction will be some time next year.
I have to say through all of this I have grown so much spiritually and mentally and have become even closer to several of my friends. It's so nice to know that you have friends and family who will cook for you, watch your kids, clean, take you to Dr, sit with you for hours during chemo, cry with you, laugh with you, plan fundraisers, kids bday parties, bathe you, blow dry your hair, pray with you, take you to emergency surgery, and just be there for you in a drop of a hat. Wow is all I can say. I feel super blessed. They have all earned an extra crown in heaven!
God is Good! I can say He hasn't left me alone through all of this and I don't know how I could get through all of this with out Him.